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Eh heh heh

Thu Dec 3, 2009, 4:02 PM
I may have potentially done something extremely stupid, or extremely helpful. Only time will tell. Okay, so as most of you know from MSN I've been having an awful couple weeks. Well, no one seemed to be able to help, so I turned to the last person on earth. I talked to my first ex again. I know, I'm insane, I'm probably the dumbest human being on earth, but I did. And we got to talking and stuff and I mentioned that I wanted to be her friend again and stuff and...well...we're friends again. My sister is really mad at me, considering my ex became an enemy of the family. And I'm not sure how :iconvermilion-fox: will handle it...OH HELL I FORGOT ABOUT THEM! Bugger, I'm dead. My parents are already gonna kill me for it.

EDIT: I risked my relationship with my family for her. I couldn't do that. I shouldn't of tried it. I didn't want to, but I broke it off. No more Jaclyn. Happy now? Hope no one hates me already...

  • Mood: Shitty
  • Listening to: "Live Your Dream" by RBF
  • Reading: MSN convos
  • Watching: Dog The Bounty Hunter
  • Playing: Gaia
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Tea(maybe)

Can't quit crying.

Journal Entry: Sun Nov 29, 2009, 3:38 PM



I just watched this [link] and now I can't stop crying my eyes out. It's so sad...and it's adorable and lovely at the same time. I don't want to watch it again though because it'll just make me cry more. I'm not sure on why my psychy is reacting this way. Maybe I'm just tired. I'm not depressed, more or less touched.

Graphics by *aishwaryakhan
CSS by =moonfreak
  • Mood: Tearful
  • Listening to: "We Close Our Eyes" by RBF
  • Reading: MSN
  • Watching: Not that vid again for awhile
  • Playing: Gaia
  • Eating: I forget what it's called
  • Drinking: Tea

Owwwwww

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 27, 2009, 9:53 AM



I busted my head on the wall last night and it hurts TwT and I'm not getting enough sleep. Nothing helps, I need my meds, I'm about to collapse. In lighter news, I dunno. I don't really have any lighter news. Just lately I bashed my head on the wall and can't sleep =w= *flail* but otherwise I'm cool. I've been listening to awesome songs lately and talking to people on MSN because I've got nothing better to do. New computer, I wants it.

Graphics by *aishwaryakhan
CSS by =moonfreak
  • Mood: Cheerful
  • Listening to: "Dammit" by Blink-182
  • Reading: Old MSN convos again
  • Watching: COMPUTAR
  • Playing: Cube 2: Saurbraten
  • Eating: Do not wants food
  • Drinking: Do not wants drink

I think I'm getting better...

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 26, 2009, 9:35 AM



:iconbrazilianninja: is a frigging genious. He's right, I should lighten up and stuff, I'm just being emo. I don't like being emo. I like being happy. And I'm gonna be happy, if it kills me. I might have some more writings along this next week. For everyone though, I wasn't gonna kill myself. I was afraid I would end up depressed again after the end of the week. I don't want to be that way anymore, I don't care if my happiness gets annoying, I want to be happy. Even through the hard times, I want to face it with a smile. It's been biting at me all day, and I think I should just stop being so emo.

Graphics by *aishwaryakhan
CSS by =moonfreak
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: "We Close Our Eyes" by RBF
  • Reading: Old MSN convos
  • Watching: Computer screen
  • Playing: Dunno, probably nothing.
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing

Wow...

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 25, 2009, 8:44 AM



I've really taken a fall. My usual optimistic, happy, fun self suddenly was stabbed to near death by my pessimistic, unhappy, depressed self. As of this week I've really taken a hit. I don't know if it's because the happiness got too much or Murphy's law. I'm just wishing this week was OVER! I think that once it's over I'll be fine. Now I've got an image stuck in my head...a horrible, awful one...I assure everyone I'll be fine soon, but right now...I dunno if I can survive the week.

Graphics by *aishwaryakhan
CSS by =moonfreak
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: "Dammit" by Blink-182
  • Reading: MSN messages
  • Watching: Computer screen
  • Playing: Nothing.
  • Eating: Nothing.
  • Drinking: Nothing.

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